i survived

i returned to work this week.  it is difficult to know that my "maternity leave" chapter with jack is over and, of course, i desperately miss his gummy smile, his laugh, his smell...the top of his head, the nape of his neck - that "newborn scent" that is so utterly sweet.  i hear that it’ll start to disappear after 3 months.  i guess that’s the time when the freshness fades and the world sets in, but i'm holding on to it as long as it'll stick around...   but, it has been a good week.  i like using my brain for things other than "baby" and i welcome diverse adult conversation.   plus, i think the routine will do us all good- jack now has a bedtime and he slept for 10 hours last night (i actually had to wake him up this morning) and i shower daily (we are all thankful for this)!  it's the drive home that kills me- i feel like it can't go fast enough to get me home to my sweet, little monchichi.  to nibble his little cheeks and inhale his sweet aroma... the drive and the absurd number of bottle and pump parts that require a daily scrub...

for now, i'm happy to be a working mommy.   just crossing my fingers that the fairies appear soon to do all the house chores!